A Touch of Rain

Curiosity Killed The Cat

Curiosity killed the cat, I should've known that. I shouldn't look for things that I know I won't like the answer to. Stupid move, stupid girl. The world seems so fuzzy and messed up right now and I can't seem to make my way through it. Then again, its my own fault, I shouldn't have… Continue reading Curiosity Killed The Cat

Thunder and Lightning

Heartache, Heartbreak

I just feel so lonely, struggling to pick myself up. These past two months have been hell and I've never had to cope with so many different yet equally hard situations. And its as if there isn't anyone there. I feel like I'm struggling to get through this and I don't know how to make… Continue reading Heartache, Heartbreak

A Touch of Rain

Letting go

I admit I've made some massive mistakes the past 7 days but I know I wasn't fully to blame. I'm ready to let it all go. I'm ready to make sure I am never that person who got into such a vulnerable position ever again. Hating myself won't work. Only when I love myself truly… Continue reading Letting go

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Stillness

Standing still but my mind won't stop spinning. I don't want to hurt like this and I don't know what's going to make it stop. I can't decide which path to take and I know I'm hurting him. I can't hurt him. I don't want to break his heart and its breaking mine. I need… Continue reading Stillness

A Touch of Rain

Be mine

I feel terrible saying this because of what happened last week. I tried to talk about it but it was still too raw, and he felt I was justifying what happened. I do understand that. But I want to go out. I want my boyfriend to come with me. To be proud to come out… Continue reading Be mine

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Not Okay

I've been telling everyone that I'm fine but I'm not...don't want to add to their troubles, I don't want to give them anything else to worry about when they've got so much else on their minds. I've relapsed so badly the past fortnight and it's been so bad and I don't want to tell anyone… Continue reading Not Okay

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Tuesday Night

He caught me. I heard his footsteps but I didn't have enough time. Not enough time to clean up or sort myself out. Just not enough time. I panicked and I freaked out. It happened so fast yet felt so slow. I heard him coming in and I rushed, I tried to sort everything out.… Continue reading Tuesday Night

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Whats another crack when you’re already broken?

I've never felt so weak, so confused, so unhappy, so broken. I've never been this down. I've never felt as if I have absolutely nothing left until now. When I relapsed in January I was convinced with the help of my friends I'd get better but now we're almost at the end of May and… Continue reading Whats another crack when you’re already broken?

Sunny Days

The Ex-Almost

It wasn't really anything. You couldn't truly call it something. It didn't amount to much. Neither of them did. He was never¬†realistically¬†going to be your boyfriend. You weren't truly dating. It didn't amount to a fling. But I still felt something. I still fell for that guy the guy that was never going to be.… Continue reading The Ex-Almost