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A Beautiful Paradox

  She was broken but never hopeless. Alone but never lonely. Her eyes reflected pain but projected courage. She was a beautiful paradox I really like that quote and feel like I can massively relate to it. It always feels weird to have people say things to me like, 'I love how confident you are, you… Continue reading A Beautiful Paradox

A Touch of Rain

Working It Out

Today's been a bad day but on the same hand one of my better ones. It's so contradictory, I know but I'm pleased with where I am right now in this very moment. As usual my day started off with the standard family stress but today I couldn't take it anymore. I'm in the middle… Continue reading Working It Out

A Touch of Rain

Letting go

I admit I've made some massive mistakes the past 7 days but I know I wasn't fully to blame. I'm ready to let it all go. I'm ready to make sure I am never that person who got into such a vulnerable position ever again. Hating myself won't work. Only when I love myself truly… Continue reading Letting go

A Touch of Rain

Be mine

I feel terrible saying this because of what happened last week. I tried to talk about it but it was still too raw, and he felt I was justifying what happened. I do understand that. But I want to go out. I want my boyfriend to come with me. To be proud to come out… Continue reading Be mine

Thunder and Lightning

Raw

They wanted to weigh me and I hadn't anticipated that. They sat me down and oh so casually said they needed my weight I haven't seen my weight for more than two months and the instant panic made it impossible to speak, I could have told them I didn't want to see it, or that… Continue reading Raw

Thunder and Lightning

Whats another crack when you’re already broken?

I've never felt so weak, so confused, so unhappy, so broken. I've never been this down. I've never felt as if I have absolutely nothing left until now. When I relapsed in January I was convinced with the help of my friends I'd get better but now we're almost at the end of May and… Continue reading Whats another crack when you’re already broken?

Sunny Days

Brave

So, that girl made it to the law ball after all. I knew I wanted to go, wanting to go wasn't the issue. I wanted to go and have a great time with my friends and I didn't doubt for a second that I wouldn't enjoy my time with them. But it's so difficult to ignore that… Continue reading Brave

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The Ex-Almost

It wasn't really anything. You couldn't truly call it something. It didn't amount to much. Neither of them did. He was never realistically going to be your boyfriend. You weren't truly dating. It didn't amount to a fling. But I still felt something. I still fell for that guy the guy that was never going to be.… Continue reading The Ex-Almost

Thunder and Lightning

‘That Girl’

I am the girl with a list of things wrong with her as long as her name. Ask anyone who knows me and they will confirm that I am that girl. If I had a pound for every time I heard the phrase, 'it could only happen to you', well, let's just say I wouldn't be… Continue reading ‘That Girl’